Someone once sang love is a battlefield...this is not true for me it is my own mind that is my battlefield in which I wage wars against myself daily because, not to be cliché, I am my own worst enemy.

20.3.13

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: Beautifully Broken




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Summary: One chance encounter changes the way Aria Montgomery and Jason DiLaurentis see each other.  Their friendship blossoms and grows into something that could become so much more.  Sometimes it is the broken that are the most beautiful. M for swearing, drug/alcohol abuse, self harm, and sexual situations.

8.3.13




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Summary: Jason has reached the end of his rope.  A chance encounter with Aria maybe the only hope he has left. Rated M for attempted suicide.

Inspired by the song Russian Roulette by Rihanna.

5.3.13

My Emotions

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This is my name in the picture. These are my words, my feelings.  On my bad days when the depression hits hardest this is what comes out.  When the stitches come free and I break I am strangely poetic.  Anyway just a little fun fact about me.

24.2.13

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: One More Night




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Summary: Jason knows he is the other man and he wants to stop this game they play.  He wants all or nothing but he is too addicted to Aria to let her go. Rated M for swearing and sexual situations including dubcon.

Inspired by the song One More Night by Maroon 5

17.2.13

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: Easy Love

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Summary: Valentine's Day balls can either be wonderful or miserable depending on your relationship status.  For Aria Montgomery this ball is just another reminder that she is alone.  Maybe a little time with stuck in an elevator with Jason DiLaurentis will change her outlook.  Rated M for swearing and sexual situations.

Dedicated to everyone who desperately needed a Jaria stuck in an elevator scene.  Also my belated valentine to all my fellow Jaria fans.

10.2.13

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: Best of Intentions



Summary: Aria finds herself alone and bored at college for spring break.  Thankfully she has Jason to text to and pass the time with.  Unbeknownst to her Jason is on his way to see her and cure the boredom.  Neither intend for anything more than friendly conversation but things never really go how we plan them.  Rated M for swearing and sexual situations.

17.1.13

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: This is a Dark Twisted Ride




Summary: The Halloween train only brings drama.  Aria is stuck in a box with no hope of getting out.  Jason is looking for answers but coming up short.  Maybe with a little help from each other they can both find what they are looking for. AU 3x13

*written in response to this tumblr post*

22.12.12

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: The Kiss



Summary: Aria has not been able to keep Jason out of her thoughts.  Jason is suffering from the same affliction.  Just one decision, one kiss can change everything.

*written for Jaria Appreciation Week on tumblr*

7.12.12

update on breathing

After chain smoking four cigarettes in a row and having another two later then having a nice double shot of rum I feel better this morning.  Yesterday was just weird and rough.  I'm not all better by any means but I'm not about to start crying today and breathing is coming naturally for once.  I really shouldn't use my vices as crutches to help me through days like yesterday but I needed something to get me by while at work.  Ah well...

6.12.12

just breathe

I'm having one of my days where it feels like I would be better of dead.  I know that's not true but it's overwhelming.  I know I'm loved, I know it would hurt those I care for if I was gone but it's still painful.  I hate this.  I hate these days.  Even thinking about going to work today has me in an almost full blown panic attack.  I want to cry but I can't.  I want to scream but I won't.  I want to just curl up in a little ball and disappear but life doesn't work that way.  I'm stronger than this.  I will get passed today.  Right now it's suffocating though.  I don't want to scare anyone or make them thing something is really wrong.  There is nothing more then the usual stresses and though I'm having thoughts of death I  know I won't carry them through.  I'm just stuck in this feeling and struggling to overcome and breathe.  To just be and remember to breathe.  How do I breathe again?

2.12.12

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years



Jason DiLaurentis + Aria Montgomery

19.11.12

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: Damn Your Eyes - Completed



Summary: There was just something about Jason DiLaurentis that pulled Aria Montgomery in time and again.  She knew exactly what it was that kept her addicted to him too.  It was those pale green hued windows into his soul that sparkled and shown with every fiery emotion his heart contained.  Somehow she could never manage to escape them.  M for swearing and sexual situations.

Inspired by the song Damn Your Eyes by Alex Clare



Chapter ten is up! Here is the final chapter ladies and gentlemen. Enjoy!

Thank you to everyone who has read and supported this story and me as an author! <3

10.11.12

Jaria fanvideos

I take no credit for any of the flowing videos.  I simply like them and want to share. ^.^


The Notwist - Consequence



Adele - Skyfall


Matthew Mayfield - Fire Escape
I have spread my dreams under your feet.
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams.
W. B. Yeats