II Timothy 1 and Psalms 1
I will try Father. That is all you have asked though, to give him another chance is that I will try. You know that I witness not in words but actions so I pray that my actions will speak louder than any words and that you would guide me in those things. Walk with me Father, as I continue on this path for you are the only one that can change a human heart. I will trust you with his soul and of course my own. This is my choice.
I'm sorry for the choice I made to walk away and only live in half belief. I thank you for teaching me even in that time. Discipline is a hard thing to learn but it was well taught.
I had the epiphany yesterday that you love me but I forgot something. I forgot to say: I love you too, Father. My heart, my soul, my mind, my life are in your hands.
This will not be an easy road. Sacrifice or no, I will struggle with this. But your not asking me to be a sheep just teachable and guidable by the only One in the universe that will never let me down. Serve to lead, that is the message you taught me throughout my childhood. Serve God and I will find myself in a situation to lead.
I lived this once; I breathed it; I can do it again. This time though it will be stronger because I will have to struggle for it.
The law of multiples doesn't just exist for demons. I speak of the example made that when one demon was driven out but allowed to return and he brought more with him, in abundance. They are made of you why would you not work in the same way just more.
The things we struggle and strive for are the things we hold most dear and the things we learn and live by. I will hold to this, that whatever does not destroy you makes you stronger. I say destroy for one day I might well die for You and I will cross that bridge when I come to it, and gladly.
This is where I stand. Aware of my own choices; that the blame falls to me; the responsibility is mine. I stand with a Father and friend who loves me and is loved in return. A Man who is my God who will love me, guide me, never betray my trust, never let me down, and never forsake me despite my humanity.
So say we all.
Avalon - Oxygen
