Someone once sang love is a battlefield...this is not true for me it is my own mind that is my battlefield in which I wage wars against myself daily because, not to be cliché, I am my own worst enemy.

12.11.07

the darkness that is

"get used to the darkness that is"

it's what i said this morning as i stepped from one room to another and left the light off because he was sleeping. it struck me as an odd sort of phrase to come out of someone's mouth but it's what we all do all the time. we get familiar with the darkness that is. at the time i was just talking about the lights being off, but as i type i realize that we constantly start to become numb to the "darkness". just like last night when we were talking with our friends, -cancer- it's a scary horrible disease, but we say cancer now like it's nothing. yes we worry for those we know whom have it, and we would be terrified if we were cursed with it but we've become numb to the word. just like we are numb to violence and death, we are numb to things that are tragic. we talk about things that used to be taboo or something you just didn't talk about cause well you don't want to think about it because we are so familiar with the terms. you know someone who's been affected by it, who's done it, who's lived through the darkness that is. we no longer really see it as darkness though, we see it as having just a little light in the room so that we can barely see but still you see into the darkness that is. is that a good or a bad thing that we get comfortable with the darkness that is?
I have spread my dreams under your feet.
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams.
W. B. Yeats