Someone once sang love is a battlefield...this is not true for me it is my own mind that is my battlefield in which I wage wars against myself daily because, not to be cliché, I am my own worst enemy.

17.1.13

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: This is a Dark Twisted Ride




Summary: The Halloween train only brings drama.  Aria is stuck in a box with no hope of getting out.  Jason is looking for answers but coming up short.  Maybe with a little help from each other they can both find what they are looking for. AU 3x13

*written in response to this tumblr post*

22.12.12

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: The Kiss



Summary: Aria has not been able to keep Jason out of her thoughts.  Jason is suffering from the same affliction.  Just one decision, one kiss can change everything.

*written for Jaria Appreciation Week on tumblr*

7.12.12

update on breathing

After chain smoking four cigarettes in a row and having another two later then having a nice double shot of rum I feel better this morning.  Yesterday was just weird and rough.  I'm not all better by any means but I'm not about to start crying today and breathing is coming naturally for once.  I really shouldn't use my vices as crutches to help me through days like yesterday but I needed something to get me by while at work.  Ah well...

6.12.12

just breathe

I'm having one of my days where it feels like I would be better of dead.  I know that's not true but it's overwhelming.  I know I'm loved, I know it would hurt those I care for if I was gone but it's still painful.  I hate this.  I hate these days.  Even thinking about going to work today has me in an almost full blown panic attack.  I want to cry but I can't.  I want to scream but I won't.  I want to just curl up in a little ball and disappear but life doesn't work that way.  I'm stronger than this.  I will get passed today.  Right now it's suffocating though.  I don't want to scare anyone or make them thing something is really wrong.  There is nothing more then the usual stresses and though I'm having thoughts of death I  know I won't carry them through.  I'm just stuck in this feeling and struggling to overcome and breathe.  To just be and remember to breathe.  How do I breathe again?

2.12.12

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years



Jason DiLaurentis + Aria Montgomery

19.11.12

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: Damn Your Eyes - Completed



Summary: There was just something about Jason DiLaurentis that pulled Aria Montgomery in time and again.  She knew exactly what it was that kept her addicted to him too.  It was those pale green hued windows into his soul that sparkled and shown with every fiery emotion his heart contained.  Somehow she could never manage to escape them.  M for swearing and sexual situations.

Inspired by the song Damn Your Eyes by Alex Clare



Chapter ten is up! Here is the final chapter ladies and gentlemen. Enjoy!

Thank you to everyone who has read and supported this story and me as an author! <3

10.11.12

Jaria fanvideos

I take no credit for any of the flowing videos.  I simply like them and want to share. ^.^


The Notwist - Consequence



Adele - Skyfall


Matthew Mayfield - Fire Escape

5.11.12

Fifth of November Poem by V




Remember, remember the fifth of November
The gunpowder treason and plot.
I know of no reason why the gunpowder treason
Should ever be forgot.

(This also happens to be my 100th post which I think is awesome!)

4.11.12

Pretty Little Liars Jaria FanFiction: Damn Your Eyes



Summary: There was just something about Jason DiLaurentis that pulled Aria Montgomery in time and again.  She knew exactly what it was that kept her addicted to him too.  It was those pale green hued windows into his soul that sparkled and shown with every fiery emotion his heart contained.  Somehow she could never manage to escape them.  M for swearing and sexual situations.

Inspired by the song Damn Your Eyes by Alex Clare


Chapter one is up and it is only the beginning. ^.^

17.10.12

Johnny Cash - Hurt



Yes, the Man in Black did cover a Nine Inch Nails song and yes, he did make it his own.

11.10.12

Marilyn Manson - This is Halloween


Anime: Soul Eater
Song covered from Nightmare Before Christmas

4.10.12

Jason/Aria - I Wanna Be Bad


Song clip from I Wanna Be Bad by Willa Ford

2.10.12

too sleepy to write


i want to write but i'm too tired to really focus on anything.  i need my brain to do this.  i'm really frustrated by this because this is the first chance i've gotten in a few days to really work on this and i just can't.  all i can think about is going to sleep but i still need to stay up a while longer so i don't sleep too long and make myself even more tired.  gah, i hate not being able to do anything.

i can't think straight enough to even make a decision on whether or not to make my new story a one-shot or a multi-chapter fic.  i'm only really questioning it because the last portion is really long.   problem is the first part is short maybe i can call it a prologue and just use the other three instances as chapters.  really it all depends on how much i write on each.  having a really long one-shot isn't necessarily a bad thing.

i also need to copy down my last story into my notebook so that i have a corrected hard copy version.  i usually do a little editing during that process though so i think it would be best to leave that for a night when i'm not about to fall asleep at my keyboard.

just one random thought for the night.  i find it strange that i enjoy rereading the stories that i've written.  sometimes it almost feels as if someone else did it, i don't know how to explain that.  it's like my creative juices are flowing and during that time i'm in that scene with the characters and i'm thinking like them so i know the reactions and the moves they're going to make.  i guess that's what makes me want to read it over because afterwards now i'm seeing everything from an outside perspective.  i know it's strange and i'm weird. =p  tell me something i didn't know.
I have spread my dreams under your feet.
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams.
W. B. Yeats