Someone once sang love is a battlefield...this is not true for me it is my own mind that is my battlefield in which I wage wars against myself daily because, not to be cliché, I am my own worst enemy.

17.4.12

Florence + the Machine - Cosmic Love



Damon & Elena from the Vampire Diaries

Within Temptation - All I Need



Damon & Elena from The Vampire Diaries
**not the complete song but still a great video**

Muse - Undisclosed Desires

8.3.12

25.9.11

INTJ


Your Type is 
INTJ
Introverted Intuitive   Thinking Judging
Strength of the preferences %
 22        50        38         33


Qualitative analysis of your type formula

 You are:
  • slightly expressed introvert
  • moderately expressed intuitive personality
  • moderately expressed thinking personality
  • moderately expressed judging personality


Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging 
by Marina Margaret Heiss
Profile: INTJ
Revision: 3.1
Date of Revision: 17 Oct 2009

To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of "definiteness", of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how. INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don't know.

INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest. What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms. This in turn produces an unusual independence of mind, freeing the INTJ from the constraints of authority, convention, or sentiment for its own sake.

INTJs are known as the "Systems Builders" of the types, perhaps in part because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability. Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project. Anyone considered to be "slacking," including superiors, will lose their respect -- and will generally be made aware of this; INTJs have also been known to take it upon themselves to implement critical decisions without consulting their supervisors or co-workers. On the other hand, they do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.

In the broadest terms, what INTJs "do" tends to be what they "know". Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia). INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.

Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.

This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.

Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.

Functional Analysis
by Joe Butt

Introverted iNtuition
INTJs are idea people. Anything is possible; everything is negotiable. Whatever the outer circumstances, INTJs are ever perceiving inner pattern-forms and using real-world materials to operationalize them. Others may see what is and wonder why; INTJs see what might be and say "Why not?!" Paradoxes, antinomies, and other contradictory phenomena aptly express these intuitors' amusement at those whom they feel may be taking a particular view of reality too seriously. INTJs enjoy developing unique solutions to complex problems.

Extraverted Thinking
Thinking in this auxiliary role is a workhorse. Closure is the payoff for efforts expended. Evaluation begs diagnosis; product drives process. As they come to light, Thinking tends, protects, affirms and directs iNtuition's offspring, fully equipping them for fulfilling and useful lives. A faithful pedagogue, Thinking argues not so much on its own behalf, but in defense of its charges. And through this process these impressionable ideas take on the likeness of their master.

Introverted Feeling
Feeling has a modest inner room, two doors down from the Most Imminent iNtuition. It doesn't get out much, but lends its influence on behalf of causes which are Good and Worthy and Humane. We may catch a glimpse of it in the unspoken attitude of good will, or the gracious smile or nod. Some question the existence of Feeling in this type, yet its unseen balance to Thinking is a cardinal dimension in the full measure of the INTJ's soul.

Extraverted Sensing
Sensing serves with a good will, or not at all. As other inferior functions, it has only a rudimentary awareness of context, amount or degree. Thus INTJs sweat the details or, at times, omit them. "I've made up my mind, don't confuse me with the facts" could well have been said by an INTJ on a mission. Sensing's extraverted attitude is evident in this type's bent to savor sensations rather than to merely categorize them. Indiscretions of indulgence are likely an expression of the unconscious vengeance of the inferior.

Famous INTJs:
Susan B. Anthony
Lance Armstrong
Arthur Ashe, tennis champion
Augustus Caesar (Gaius Julius Caesar Octavianus)
Jane Austen (Pride and Prejudice)
Dan Aykroyd (The Blues Brothers)
William J. Bennett, "drug czar"
William F. Buckley, Jr.
Raymond Burr (Perry Mason, Ironsides)
Chevy Chase (Cornelius Crane) (Fletch)
Katie Couric
Phil Donahue
Michael Dukakis, governor of Mass., 1988 U.S. Dem. pres. candidate
Richard Gere (Pretty Woman)
Rudy Giuliani, former New York City mayor
Greg Gumbel, television sportscaster
Hannibal, Carthaginian military leader
Emily Bronte, author of Wuthering Heights
Angela Lansbury (Murder, She Wrote)
Orel Leonard Hershiser, IV
Peter Jennings
Charles Everett Koop
Ivan Lendl
C. S. Lewis (The Chronicles of Narnia)
Joan Lunden
Edwin Moses, U.S. olympian (hurdles)
Martina Navratilova
Michelle Obama
General Colin Powell, former US Secretary of State
Charles Rangel, US Representative, D-N.Y.
Pernell Roberts (Bonanza)
Donald Rumsfeld, former US Secretary of Defense 
Hillary Clinton, US Secretary of State
Arnold Schwarzenegger, Governor of California
Josephine Tey (Elizabeth Mackintosh), mystery writer (Brat Farrar)
U.S. Presidents:
Chester A. Arthur
Calvin Coolidge
Thomas Jefferson
John F. Kennedy
James K. Polk
Woodrow Wilson

Fictional:
Cassius (Julius Caesar)
Mr. Darcy (Pride and Prejudice)
Gandalf the Grey (J. R. R. Tolkein's Middle Earth books)
Hannibal Lecter (Silence of the Lambs)
Professor Moriarty, Sherlock Holmes' nemesis
Horatio Hornblower
Ensign Ro (Star Trek--the Next Generation)
Rosencrantz and Guildenstern (Hamlet)
George Smiley, John le Carre's master spy
Clarice Starling (Silence of the Lambs)

Copyright © 1996-2011 by Marina Margaret Heiss and Joe Butt



20.9.11

This song makes me smile...

...and the video is about my current obsession. ^.^

9.5.11

Avalon - Undeniably You


Lyrics:

Like finding the match when the lights go out
Like finding the raft when the ship's going down
That's how it was when You rescued my heart
You covered the dark with the light of Your love
It's so much more than anything I've felt before

It's unbelievable
All the things that You do
It's unexplainable
How Your love pulls me through
And I can't question
The one thing I've found to be true
It's undeniably You

Like finding a shelter in the pouring rain
Like finding your way when you're lost in a maze
That's how it was when You came in my life
I'll always be safe with You here by my side
It's so much more than anything I've felt before

It's unbelievable
All the things that You do
(It's unexplainable)
Oh, how Your love pulls me through
And I can't question
The one thing I've found to be true
Oh, yeah, it's undeniably You

When You reached out to me
You gave me the strength to hold on again
Oh, You're everything
Everything
It's all I need, this love that You've given me, yeah

It's unbelievable
All the things that You do
(It's unexplainable)
Oh, how Your love pulls me through
And I can't question
The one thing I've found to be true
Oh, yeah, it's undeniably You

It's unbelievable
All the things that You do
(It's unexplainable)
Oh, how Your love pulls me through
And I can't question
The one thing I've found to be true
Oh, yeah, it's undeniably You

Unbelievable you

Where I Stand

Kirk Franklin - My Life is in Your Hands

II Timothy 1 and Psalms 1

I will try Father. That is all you have asked though, to give him another chance is that I will try. You know that I witness not in words but actions so I pray that my actions will speak louder than any words and that you would guide me in those things. Walk with me Father, as I continue on this path for you are the only one that can change a human heart. I will trust you with his soul and of course my own. This is my choice.

I'm sorry for the choice I made to walk away and only live in half belief. I thank you for teaching me even in that time. Discipline is a hard thing to learn but it was well taught.

I had the epiphany yesterday that you love me but I forgot something. I forgot to say: I love you too, Father. My heart, my soul, my mind, my life are in your hands.

This will not be an easy road. Sacrifice or no, I will struggle with this. But your not asking me to be a sheep just teachable and guidable by the only One in the universe that will never let me down. Serve to lead, that is the message you taught me throughout my childhood. Serve God and I will find myself in a situation to lead.

I lived this once; I breathed it; I can do it again. This time though it will be stronger because I will have to struggle for it.

The law of multiples doesn't just exist for demons. I speak of the example made that when one demon was driven out but allowed to return and he brought more with him, in abundance. They are made of you why would you not work in the same way just more.

The things we struggle and strive for are the things we hold most dear and the things we learn and live by. I will hold to this, that whatever does not destroy you makes you stronger. I say destroy for one day I might well die for You and I will cross that bridge when I come to it, and gladly.

This is where I stand. Aware of my own choices; that the blame falls to me; the responsibility is mine. I stand with a Father and friend who loves me and is loved in return. A Man who is my God who will love me, guide me, never betray my trust, never let me down, and never forsake me despite my humanity.

So say we all.

Avalon - Oxygen

8.5.11

God loves me!

God loves me. How simplistic and how profound. Somehow I had forgotten that until today.

God loves me. God loves you. God is love.

How crazy is it that I had an "Oh!" moment when the pastor said that this morning. I suppose it's a little like my "Oh!" moment when a friend of mine told me I knew myself best. I had forgotten that too. It's much like how I often forget to breathe. You wouldn't think it was possible. That's just one of the things the human body does naturally, but I do forget to breathe.

Still the most profound of my recent epiphanies is this: God loves me! No matter what I've done, who I've been, or where I'm currently at in life and my walk with Him; God loves me.

That thought just makes me happy. No matter what I am loved. Unconditionally, always, to the ends of the earth I am loved by an infinite God, my father, my friend.
I have spread my dreams under your feet.
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams.
W. B. Yeats